am i do some wrong decision in my college life??
during the fundraising...i just realise that so many ppl dislike me...
ya, i know many ppl will dislike me bcoz of my temper n my face
well, i admit that sometime i will scold ppl without any reason
that is my fault, i know...i am trying to control it well...
but y i will suddenly boom out is just bcoz u all...
i dun know how to say...
feel that u all do not put fully effort on it...n being selfish
bcoz of fundraising again...i really scare to count money
i'm scaring...i wish that this is the 1st time i'm b treasurer n also the last time
NO NEXT TIME AGAIN
n bcoz this issue again, my mum has scold me many times
n she is calling me to resign
she said : "u r so unhappy on it n so many ppl unsatisfied u, y u still wan to stay??"
at first i dun thk so i wan to resign coz SBS NIGHT, i have to handle it up...so that i cant give up so fast n easily
but, what i saw recently, i feel that i really have to resign...coz something n someone make me disappointed n there is no other reason to let me stay...
i know that, if i resign now...many of them will say i'm no responsible at all...
is fine to me, if they wan to say like that...
other than that, i thk i cant handle all the jobs well n do it perfectly
everything i wish have to be perfect
but in this real city i cant make it
sure have some part of it is imperfect
i strongly agree what seniors have told v all juniors on Thursday
actually i also saw what they saw
heard what they heard
think what they think
feel what they feel
but i can not voice out coz i'm not senior
and i'm just a follower, a junior without any position
on that day, there is a part is imperfect
coz some of the juniors are not around
and some back early
which mean the msg cant bring through to every juniors
resign, it's that good for me??
it's that bring out many benefit to me??
ya, it is...
it will give me more time to study n rest
no arguments with parents
more time to hang out with friend
get closer relationship between me and others
be more myself
this is the most useful benefit to me and my friends
all my friends wish to have a real LiYing back
they dislike to see a tired, fully pressure n with a pair of panda eyes
of LiYing
they wish to see the real LiYing with fully laughing face and happiness
will i do this decision??
anyone can tell me??
will i regret after do this??
will i lost out many things??
will i??
will i??
what is the purpose i join??
am i already succeed??
